06 July 2008

Three


Three, Little A.

Can you believe it?

To think that once upon a time, three was such a questionable number. Three minutes? Three hours? Three days? Three weeks?

And now, three years.

I should have known from the start what a fighter you were, Little A. All the odds that you've already overcome to be here now, lighting up so many worlds with the sunshine from your sweet face.

To think that sometimes now I struggle, not with prayers for your next breath, not with tears of wondering what your future holds, but with tears of joy for the moments that your smile catches me unprepared and leaves me struggling for my next breath--I'm so filled with such complete love for you that at times, I'm literally crushed.

You are my constant reminder, Little A, of how the darkest storms can create the brightest rainbow, of how the despite what common sense and logic might say, that if we listen to what our hearts are whispering to us, we can make it.

And made it, we have, haven't we, sunshine?

Everything about you: your independence, your wit, your laughter, your heart--everything about you makes me such a grateful person, each and every single day of my life.

There are so many eloquent quotes and writings denoting how much a mother gives when she gives life. Someday, possibly, I'll explain to you what life you gave to me; how, in some ways, you saved me, you re-created me.

I love you Little A, so much more that what I can tell you here, or when I'm kissing your face, or embracing you, or smoothing your hair.

I love you beyond love.


And no matter the days or years that pass, no matter the changes that will occur, that will remain as such.

22 comments:

  1. she is so adorable, I can't stand it

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  2. That was beautiful, Mama! You are lucky to have each other...

    Happy Birthday to Lil A!! :)

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  3. Happy Birthday, Little A.! Three is such a magical time...

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  4. Beautiful, mama.

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  5. Such a sweet post. I hope you're printing it now to keep for Little A someday.

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  6. Anonymous2:26 PM

    Jenn - as always, you have written something so commanding, so heatwrenchingly beautiful. You really just blow me away.

    Happy Birthday Little A!

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  7. Beautiful, as always.

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  8. What a pretty little girl. I love the blonde hair and the pink dress.

    Reminds me of my little sister when she was young.

    By the way, I have been reading your posts and really enjoy them! Keep on writing. You have great stories to tell. And your appreciation of symbolism is similar to my own.

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  9. happy birthday little A.
    oh j, you too should be celebrating all you do to grow this little girl. incredible.

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  10. Happy Birthday to your little angel :)

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  11. Well of course you do: just look at her!

    Happiest of days, Little A.

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  12. Anonymous9:56 PM

    She is a beautiful little muffin and one day older than my little boy.
    Love, Nancy F.

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  13. This is a moving and heart-warming letter to your daughter, and it made me want to cry in the best way possible. I think that in one short page you've captured the essence of motherhood, the unconditional love that you know you can never fully describe.

    You've come closer than most, though.

    I have often felt this way about my sister, who is five.

    Three is a beautiful age. Your daughter looks lovely.

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  14. Three! Three is magical. Happy Three, Little A.

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  15. What a beautiful post about a beautiful little girl. Happy Birthday Little A!

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  16. happy birthday, little A

    and Happy re-creation anniversary, lovely Jenn

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  17. 8-4 is my daughter's birthday, too. She is 7 now. I wrote about her here.

    Seven Years Ago...Today

    So glad to see you writing here again.

    T.

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  18. Psssttt...I tagged you. Check out my blog for details.

    Adorable pictures btw.

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  19. Oh, 3! So precious.

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  20. Anonymous10:17 AM

    This made me smile. It's so filled up with love, this post made my day better. Thank you.

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  21. Happy Birthday Little A!!!! And thanks Jen for the beautiful words.

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