06 July 2008

Three


Three, Little A.

Can you believe it?

To think that once upon a time, three was such a questionable number. Three minutes? Three hours? Three days? Three weeks?

And now, three years.

I should have known from the start what a fighter you were, Little A. All the odds that you've already overcome to be here now, lighting up so many worlds with the sunshine from your sweet face.

To think that sometimes now I struggle, not with prayers for your next breath, not with tears of wondering what your future holds, but with tears of joy for the moments that your smile catches me unprepared and leaves me struggling for my next breath--I'm so filled with such complete love for you that at times, I'm literally crushed.

You are my constant reminder, Little A, of how the darkest storms can create the brightest rainbow, of how the despite what common sense and logic might say, that if we listen to what our hearts are whispering to us, we can make it.

And made it, we have, haven't we, sunshine?

Everything about you: your independence, your wit, your laughter, your heart--everything about you makes me such a grateful person, each and every single day of my life.

There are so many eloquent quotes and writings denoting how much a mother gives when she gives life. Someday, possibly, I'll explain to you what life you gave to me; how, in some ways, you saved me, you re-created me.

I love you Little A, so much more that what I can tell you here, or when I'm kissing your face, or embracing you, or smoothing your hair.

I love you beyond love.


And no matter the days or years that pass, no matter the changes that will occur, that will remain as such.

22 comments:

flutter said...

she is so adorable, I can't stand it

Amy Y said...

That was beautiful, Mama! You are lucky to have each other...

Happy Birthday to Lil A!! :)

slouching mom said...

Happy Birthday, Little A.! Three is such a magical time...

Amanda said...

Beautiful, mama.

Ally said...

Such a sweet post. I hope you're printing it now to keep for Little A someday.

Mama Goose said...

Jenn - as always, you have written something so commanding, so heatwrenchingly beautiful. You really just blow me away.

Happy Birthday Little A!

Sarcasta-Mom said...

Beautiful, as always.

Alan said...

What a pretty little girl. I love the blonde hair and the pink dress.

Reminds me of my little sister when she was young.

By the way, I have been reading your posts and really enjoy them! Keep on writing. You have great stories to tell. And your appreciation of symbolism is similar to my own.

bgirl said...

happy birthday little A.
oh j, you too should be celebrating all you do to grow this little girl. incredible.

Kimberly said...

Happy Birthday to your little angel :)

Janet said...

Well of course you do: just look at her!

Happiest of days, Little A.

Anonymous said...

She is a beautiful little muffin and one day older than my little boy.
Love, Nancy F.

BlackenedBoy said...

This is a moving and heart-warming letter to your daughter, and it made me want to cry in the best way possible. I think that in one short page you've captured the essence of motherhood, the unconditional love that you know you can never fully describe.

You've come closer than most, though.

I have often felt this way about my sister, who is five.

Three is a beautiful age. Your daughter looks lovely.

christina said...

Cute shoes!

Jennifer said...

Three! Three is magical. Happy Three, Little A.

Kerry said...

What a beautiful post about a beautiful little girl. Happy Birthday Little A!

painted maypole said...

happy birthday, little A

and Happy re-creation anniversary, lovely Jenn

TLC said...

8-4 is my daughter's birthday, too. She is 7 now. I wrote about her here.

Seven Years Ago...Today

So glad to see you writing here again.

T.

Samantha said...

Psssttt...I tagged you. Check out my blog for details.

Adorable pictures btw.

Kelly said...

Oh, 3! So precious.

Deb said...

This made me smile. It's so filled up with love, this post made my day better. Thank you.

luckyzmom said...

Happy Birthday Little A!!!! And thanks Jen for the beautiful words.